the other day i was laying on my neighbor/friend's couch and she looked at me and asked "how do you feel?" ... i just looked at her questioningly and she said "i know you feel tired, physically, but tell me how you feel about everything else, about the baby coming."
when i think about having this baby, i get all kind of anxieties that i didn't think i would get. especially since this is my second time around. but i feel like a new mom again. i am scared, nervous, anxious, and everything in between.
i'm worried about labor and giving birth. and getting an epidural. and possibly having a c-section.
then i'm worried about my milk. when it will come in. how much will i have. how will nursing go with this baby.
and of course i'm worried about bringing baby home. having a teeny infant again. and also having a toddler.
i worry about lyla and how she will react and adjust. i know she will just love her baby brother. but how will i still give her enough attention when i have a newborn too.
it's so funny to me, because i didn't think i would have all of these anxieties, but i do.
i have to try not to think about them as much as possible and just focus on all the excitement with getting to meet our little boy.
The photo of you and your daughter is the CUTEST photo ever!!! I love it!
ReplyDeleteI understand 100% what you are going through. I even wrote a post just like this one last week about all my fears about becoming a mom all over again. http://to-calm-insanity.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-fears-of-motherhood-second-time.html
ReplyDeleteReading your post makes me feel better that I'm not alone in feeling weird of that I'm making it a bigger deal then it is. It is a scary thing.