the other day i was laying on my neighbor/friend's couch and she looked at me and asked "how do you feel?" ... i just looked at her questioningly and she said "i know you feel tired, physically, but tell me how you feel about everything else, about the baby coming."
when i think about having this baby, i get all kind of anxieties that i didn't think i would get. especially since this is my second time around. but i feel like a new mom again. i am scared, nervous, anxious, and everything in between.
i'm worried about labor and giving birth. and getting an epidural. and possibly having a c-section.
then i'm worried about my milk. when it will come in. how much will i have. how will nursing go with this baby.
and of course i'm worried about bringing baby home. having a teeny infant again. and also having a toddler.
i worry about lyla and how she will react and adjust. i know she will just love her baby brother. but how will i still give her enough attention when i have a newborn too.
it's so funny to me, because i didn't think i would have all of these anxieties, but i do.
i have to try not to think about them as much as possible and just focus on all the excitement with getting to meet our little boy.
Posted by Morgan@the smores